So I had a rather obscure apology posted on my blog a bit ago. I am happy to announce that the apology has been accepted (with both the friend and my BF, on a separate note).
But I’m also saddened to hear this same friend, who is a fan of this blog, has hit a difficult patch in his life. And he’s contemplating a terrible act to himself. He’s not out to his family, as he says they’d disown him. He feels all alone in the world.
I remember there was a time in my life when I felt the same. I nearly committed suicide myself back in high school. Back then, there was no internet. There was no way of me knowing or being able to meet other like minded guys–or know that they even existed! Talk about isolation. I just knew I was relentlessly teased in high school for reasons I didn’t fully understand. I was in denial about who I was. And I didn’t see things getting any better.
I was all set to take pills. And I was actually walking to the bathroom to so when my phone rang. Out of instinct, I answered it. It was a friend of mine just saying hello. He had no idea what he had stopped me from, and I never told him, but I remember him making me laugh. And suddenly, I didn’t feel as alone anymore.
I still went through some hard times, but I started to realize that maybe I could see it through. And that I could pick myself up.
Fast forward through some still tough times that eventually got better… now I have a job I love, a great boyfriend, and a successful blog. None of which I would have thought would ever happen. Especially this blog. Sometimes, we just don’t know what the future holds for us.
So for all of you who have ever felt this way… please comment, so my friend can see he’s not alone in how he feels. Or email me, so I can forward it to him.
And if this is you, or you know someone who is, please be aware of The Trevor Project, who does amazing work with this issue. They have a 24/7 help line at 866-488-7386. Because no one should think their life is worthless.
Fortunately, since I started writing this post, he seems to be feeling better so far. But… I think he (and I) would appreciate hearing from others who have also felt this way.
